The Dramaqween Pastors Kid

I started this blog about being a pastors kid and thought of it as my past. It now has become my present also. Not in the way that I anticipated… not a huge fan of suprise to be honest. Unless it’s a gift.

My father is going to be a pastor again. Only this time they will be 1000 miles away. I’ll be honest and say that I’ve never lived more then 20 minutes from my parents… ever. So the thought of it makes me incredibly sad. Only it makes him incredibly happy to do what he loves.

It makes me wish God could just shoot me and email or leave me a post-it with little hints and to why he does what he does.

The other night at our Couples Bible Study it came up about  having a hard time with getting out heads and hearts lined up. So I decided to look up Jeremiah 17:9… a verse I have to remind myself of often. “The heart is more deceitful than all else And is desperately sick; Who can understand it?” So I googled it to see what kind of commentary I could find. And low and behold on the side bar next to all the translations was a photo of jerusalem with a mark right next to the city of BETHANY. huh. Point taken.

I’ve always struggled with the “I know it makes no sense to FEEL this way, but I do.”  Where do you draw the line between “a gut feeling” and “common sense”  And then I read this Romans 1:21  “For even though they knew God, they did not honor Him as God or give thanks, but they became futile in their speculations, and their foolish heart was darkened.” It is SO hard to be thankful for something you don’t want, but knowing it’s what God wants tends to put it in to perspective. So I continue to try to balance feelings with facts.